We are making progress!
I have been on the low dose HCG and Follistim (some clinics use gonal-F) for 3 days. I have a follow up appointment tomorrow morning. I think it will be blood work and ultrasound and based on that I will have an adjusted plan by Monday afternoon. I am on the highest dose my doctor will use of Follistim (450 units), so the main update will be when I have my next appointment. I think it is too early to plan when my egg retrieval will actually be.
Fatigue and inability to focus has already started. Extra noise is a bit much and I have struggled to get my computer work done. I made 3 attempts to get to the office to sit down and pay bills with 0 success. I am also warding off a baseline depression. I am simply struggling to get up and go unless there is some appointment or important meeting. I can tell I don't have baseline motivation and it feels like I am wearing a weighted vest that makes everything I do more difficult. For example, I moved the furniture to vacuum but then felt wiped out and haven't vacuumed. Luckily I am able to identify it and get myself to write a list and check off one or two things. The struggle is changing my expectation of what I can do on my own. Thankfully, I was able to have help with one family member going to the grocery store and another cooking dinner. I actually feel too tired to eat.
I will eat something, take my evening shot and estrogen then go to bed early. It definitely helps that I have experienced some depression before and that this is my 5th go of hormones for egg retrieval. If you know someone going through IVF- between the shot schedule (which the meds need to stay refrigerated) and some depression and/or mood swings they will not be able to be themselves and may not know how to ask for help. I have really appreciated throughout the last year when asked "how are you?" and "how is it going?" Some days (and even hours!) are more challenging than others and for different reasons. I also appreciate all of you reading this and following my journey. It helps to have the support and a place to put into words what I am feeling and working through.