Embryology is a critical part of your IVF team. Embryology - the study of embryos. Just kidding that's a terrible definition. The study of gametes (sperm and eggs), their fertilization and early development that is embryology. Embryos are the early development of dividing cells after fertilization. In a naturally occuring pregnancy, the embryo develops in the fallopian tube prior to implanting into the uterine wall. Even at 5 days the embryo has started to change into the cells that become the placenta and yolk sac or baby.
Enough science talk. I wrote the intro before I received the call from embryology. Of my 7 eggs only 1 was mature enough to fertilize. One. Ugh.
The first hour after this phone call was rough. Disappointment. Sadness. Grief. Frustration. Blame. Anger. And tears - which for me- is a big deal, especially in public. Fortunately, my husband has gotten skilled at the hormone and emotional crazy that comes with this journey. We took a walk on the beach.
At first there was nothing he could say or do that helped me feel better (I'll get him to write an article or at a minimum share some of his experiences as the partner in this journey). Let's just say- we understand why some couples split after going through IVF (and menopause) HORMONES ARE ROUGH. Every person is going to feel their feelings differently. My advice, simply give yourself time to have the feelings. Then identify which activities help you to process them and move through the emotions. For me, moving through nature does just that.
After the walk, I felt grounded and reassured. There is a lot to learn about oneself in this journey. My big picture lesson seems to be slow down and focus my attention on my body being ready for a baby. My instinct is to push, to make it happen. One cannot force medicines to work differently, cannot force a pregnancy to happen. I actually need to slow down, do less, stress less. Nourish my body so that I have all the elements need to grow healthy eggs and have the best possible response to the medicines.